It's A Trap!... or so I thought...

hah? apa sih?

It's really weird..

Well for one, I know that I have the habit of going crazy for a certain period of time for something I like or enjoy. Things like finding a new game, a new sport, a new side of math, a new girl group, a new song, etc.

e.g. : I discovered how cool board games are (again), couple of weeks ago, and here I am sitting with 3 new board games I just bought.

Now, I can argue how it might be good and/or bad from a lot of perspectives, but let's just say that it's just the way I am, and I can't really  control myself (to stop liking or to stop from going crazy for that period of time), hence I have to find another way to deal with it.

The dangerous part about this actually lies in the "certain period of time" part that I mentioned earlier. If I go crazy about stuff and then after a month or so, stop liking it, and move on to other stuff.. Well, that sounds pretty bad... to me at least. I want to be consistent and committed. And especially with my relationships to other people (not limited to girlfriend/boyfriend/etc, I don't want to judge myself lol :p), I want to at least be consistent with it.

There are cases (like Sunderland and Project Pop) where I still love it till now, but of course the time I spent for it/them becomes shorter in the sense that, say for example Sunderland, I only watch their game every week, and probably some news about them every other day (compared to when I first started liking it and checked their news 24/7)

But there are also other cases like a certain game, and the whole EXERCISE things. It's short-lived and I sort of have "no interest" on it anymore whatsoever. Well I still probably think exercise is really important, but probably not in the way that I used to think it was.

Anyway, I think I wrote this down before, but in a different case. If I have the mood to study, I will want to study for a certain period of time, and hence I will force myself to finish it before that period ended. simple.
The case with hobbies, likings, relations?.. not that simple.

now with hobbies, I probably won't harm other people, other than probably kept bugging them about it for a few weeks,etc... My point is, it won't affect them directly in a way that doing the same thing regarding relation with other people might affect them.

Simplest case : I like someone, and I go crazy about her (or him, whatever, just gonna say her for now, to avoid any confusion :p... And don't worry guys, I'm still as straight as the Pisa.. I mean the Eiffel tower ).
Now, if I follow my "craziness" and say, ask her out or something, blah blah, no matter what the result is, if after a certain (relatively short) period of time I didn't feel the same way anymore, and I started acting differently, etc. Now that is an action I truly detest, and I really don't want to see myself doing something like that.

So that's definitely a trap .... or is it??

I guess at least I still enjoy most of my hobbies or favoritism that came by this method. Probably I just enjoy it less. Probably I still like them. Probably I can still revive them somehow.

anyhow, this has got me thinking about a lot of things.

"Am I really that inconsistent?" is one of em.


oh well..

oh well...

I'll keep doing what I think is right at that particular moment then. at least until I have a good answer to all these.