not trying to run away

Im not saying none of these werent my fault..

Do u know how guilty i felt everytime i fell asleep?

u probably know, but..

I dont know, Ive been doing it several times, and I cant do anything about it..

I tried.. I fight against my sleepiness morethan I used to..

but still.. its hard..

I know ure probably not a 100% blaming me, u might not even blame me for these..

But i did..

I always felt like, "wow I couldnt even do it for her sake","maw jadi apa, gini aja gak bisa"

yeah..

I just need to say these..

Im not running away...

I already decided to be with u forever, and we're gonna stick together..

I want to always be with u..

its a process...

dont leave me okay?

I will always try and prove that I'm worth it for u, not just on those happy and sad times..

but also hard times, and ordinary times...

so, please cheeer up..