hmm...

so, last night, I got into a 'fight' with my girlfriend..

we both dont really think its a fight though..

It was just a misunderstanding and we cleared it up..

but

I think theres still something..

I felt like there was still some lingering(?) feeling.. like its not over or something..

I hope she's okay... cause she sounded a bit down to me.. even if she said it was okay..

let's hope this is me being delusional

I hate the fact that Im always the one who offended and hurt her..

mostly its accidental, but that's beside the point..

I am always trying again and again to adjust myself..

and I think I did hurt her again when I didnt ask her to accompany me because I thought she wanted to do something else.. and even after that, I even asked her (sarcastically maybe) what was so funny when she said it was funny that i was defending myself to a misunderstanding..

that was my old habit of always defending myself.. I did that to everyone, my friends my teachers even my mom. I was insensitive and I could see why she was hurt...

so i'm really sorry for not being a good boyfriend (yet).. you know our motto is "live and learn", so I hope you will always give me the chance to "learn"... cause "living" without"learning" is really sad..

living without u is even worse though :)

I am sorry for what I did and I love you anabel <3, please smile if u are reading this.. you are most pretty and attractive when you are showing that sweet angelic smile of yours XD