dunno how i feel..

yesterday was really strange for me.. at home, I didn't want to play games, but didn't want to study either.. maybe it's the sign of "laziness"... okay, it is laziness..
but now, I really dunno how I feel... Happy? definitely not.. Sad? not really either.. Angry? maybe a little bit.. to my self.. u see, my target of this year is to be at least 3r in class.. this means that besides everyone that I have beaten before, I must at least beat Naufal(highly impossible),Wicak (highly unlikely), or Putu Agung(no chance).. but that's if I really improved and all my friends at least stay the same.. now I'm really afraid of losing my 4th place to anyone..( sumpah ne, no intentions to degrade u in any way at all).. u know, Rene's scores are better than mine so far.. maybe I'm only better with him at math..

Now for tomorrow's IPA TRYOUT, I have only been studying for 30 min-1 hour.. I get the outline, but not the details, like Optical lens or mirror.. aaaa ... I'm getting crazier by the sec...

It seems everybody is starting to run faster than me and beginning to pass me one by one.. I didn't want to be left out behind...

The only positive thing that I did this week, was playing sports everyday like when I'm in 8th grade.. but this time I didnt play football, I play basketball instead.. just a couple of weeks ago I discover how interesting basketball is..

Sunderland News :
we lose last night after extra time.. by 2 goals to 1... I think the reserves and the young players did really well against blackburn.. Jones and Cisse didn't play, and I would say that it's a wise deciision by Ricky Sbragia, as they both picked up an injury on last sunday's game against newcastle.. Ricky had his mind set for saturday's game against stoke..

okay, now I really gotta focus myself... I really don't want to lose my 4th place to anyone.. I must study even harder then... Okay, bye for now..