girls...

uhh.. well I've been through a lot of thinking lately, and I figured some things I already knew but had been forgotten for a long time... oh well.. it's 12.23 in the morning and today's monday!!! fortunately my school give us a (rather rare) holiday today for a break after the eventful CC edufair 09.. WE broke a MURI record, I had a lot of fun with my friends, and I had a better idea about the major and college I would be attending in the near future..

nuff bout that..

okay, so I basically wanna talk about girls... It's common for a high school boy to have a girlfriend right?.. having said that, I haven't remember making any new friend with girl during my 3 years in junior high.. well except from maybe.. wait.. 1, 2... i guess that's 2... yeah.. here's the fact : I'm not good with girls...

Nor am I good in socialization, but at least interacting with the other boys is a much easier job than with girls.. maybe it's because of my school.. maybe it's because the environment.. but maybe... it's just my issues..

most people who know me usually say that I'm the kind of person they like to be friends with... only a few make enemies with me... even then, on a certain occasion, we woulld get along again... I haven't remember having any enemy... dunno if i already make some of them, but I'm sure that most people like me as their friend.. but my issues is that getting to know me needs a bit of process, and going through that makes me a little bit uncomfortable... and that's totally MY issues..

so I'm still a bit confused here.. on the 2nd or 3rd day of senior high school, one of my counseling teacher said to the class that having a girlfriend is not a bad thing, in fact it's a good thing... I never consider that... when I watch some movies or maybe read a lot of mangas, some of which is about school life, they make dating looks like heaven and hell.. and I'm not yet ready for either one of it.. looking at my current position, it's quite impossible for me to have a girlfriend.. I was considering to look for 1 some time ago, but I already gave up on it.. I think I should just enjoy my life as it is, and let the flow take me anywhere they want.. I'll just leave it to nature and time.. I once read some tips on how to do homeworks and tasks well and 1 of the point said that take it one day at a time.. of course you should have plans for the future term, but taking 1 day at a time works well with me.. I'm facing the present not the future nor the past.. so why would i even bother? the furuture needs some thinking but occasionally you should take it 1 day at a time...

what if tomorrow I met a girl and than I'm all of a sudden dating? then let it be.. I'm curious as to what nature, time and circumstances could offer to me but I won't try to guess or make a prediction about it.. I'm just gonna enjoy having my life the way it is right now..

sometimes my friends talk about this girl, and that girl, and I'm like.. "oooh... eh tau ga pisang apa yang bisa akrobat?" and stuffs like that .. but seriously, I need some girl-friends!!! anyone interested to be my friend? lol...

since senior high, I'm a lot braver, as well as crazier.. and the urge to "exist" became uncontrollable.. "when all u wanted, was to be wanted.." ==> true, I'm having that feeling right now..

at least now i know where my actual talent is.. it's jayuzan.. I know I'm good at it, and I'm still improving... i think i 'm already at the same level of the master comarkico... maybe even slightly higher.. and the best thing of that, is everyone seems to be enjoying it, though some few think it's annoying and "nggak jelas".. well sacrificng 1 out of 30 is fine.. and it's not exactly a bad thing or anything.. it's just our way to kill some time, and also improving our logic and analyzation skill, as to make a jayuzan, one needs to know how it comes to the answer, does it make sense or not, is it a funny joke or a jayuz joke or not even a jayuz joke, and digging the infinite number of probability in making a question even about certain topic... so i guess I'm gonna continue doing it till i feel sick of it..

hidup jayuzan!!!

{it's banana split if u are curious bout the answer of the jayuzan I gave u in the 6th, 7th paragraph, i dun remember and r too lazy to scroll..}